Well you feel like a bug for instance. I don't mean to be mean to myself. But god she's beautfitul.
Ok let me tell you how this hideous picture was taken. We were wining and dining in
Savini in Milan when Coco and her friends walked in. I tried to talk myself into going over to her and ask her to take a picture together for an hour (and thanks to the wine I drank, I finally did). So I went over to her table trying not to make her uncomfortable and asked her if we could take a picture. To my utter surprise she said yes. And she was really nice about it.
But this is not the point to my post. The point is that models are so beautiful (she said, feeling like an utter idiot). I mean she was sitting there with three other models (who I'm sorry but I did not recognize) and each of them looked like they were from another planet. It's not like they are very beautiful regular people. They are models which now I come to understand is a totally different concept. And you cannot understand the difference unless you see one in person. God, the way she looked made me hate myself. Their skin and their bodies. I thought I was at least a little bit attractive you know. But now, I feel like I look like a total bug.
When I come to think about it, perhaps, this is what people have been shouting about girls like myself trying to look like models and having no sense of self-confidence, to a point of making them(
our)selves starve to death. The difference is I think (I have come to understand) is that no matter how much you starve yourself to death if your DNA does not allow you to look like a model, you won't and you will end up looking like
Nicole Richie at her worst. And I know that there is no
fucking way you will look like a model unless you are
genetically designed to look like one.
I mean I get that no matter how much I work out I will not be as thin as Karlie Kloss or how much I go to a facial my skin will never be as pure as Coco's. So I have accepted the fact that I will never be "model" beautiful. Instead I might try my best to look "people" good. (Which admittedly, I don't look in this picture)
I know this is a long post but I promise I am cutting to the chase right now. I, as a devoted fashion magazine reader, I appreciate curves on normal people. (Damn it, I know a man would never look twice at a girl without tits and a hot ass) Therefore you can appreciate that I am not pro-anorexia and that I accept in no way girls idolizing models so much that they starve themselves. Me, I just want to see pretty pretty girls (and the sound in my head is like tra-la-la-laaa).
So there, make a comparison and hate me.
Coco Rocha you rock my world